On The Road

On this fresh paper of snow, i scribbled;
words of spring as happiness blossomed;
summer scent in phrases of love;
paragraphs of separation in autumn falls;
& lonely conversations with the winter birds.

Cycles of love, life & happiness. We are pedalling hard everyday, turning the ups & downs. Life is incomplete, much like a punctured tyre. When you go slow, you drag through your whole life. When you go fast, you move like "flop-flop-flop", flopping from one downturn to another. But if life is one downhill roll, then why is it so hard? I wish I could just go on all fours, & roll down fast. But that would hurt real bad. Slowly we learn to stand up & see far. Looking down a slope, you see death awaits you at the end. No matter which path you take, you'll inevitably end up at the bottom of the hill with him. You learn to walk & take each step slowly down the one-way street. You look back, but things disappear over the other side of the hill everytime you take a step forward. Sometimes you enjoy the scenery along the way & forgot your steps, & they get faster & faster, until you woke up in a sudden shock of realisation that the surroundings are rushing way too fast past you. You halt & you look back but you can't see. Everything has changed. The path in front seems so short, & now you suddenly realise you'll never know if a car will rush out & knock you down anytime. It just makes everything that you have done, every step that you have walked up till now, seemed meaningless. They just brought you closer to the end, no matter what they are. But you can't stop. People keep pushing you forward. They tell you to move on, to make the most out of your life, because the end is inevitable, & what matters is the journey. They nudge & pull you along. But you just don't see it that way. The problem tugs at you all the time, & you certainly don't want to just run away from it all, & make life go faster so you can forget all about it. There are rules that you don't understand yet. Why are there no U-turns allowed on this road? Is there free parking along the road? Does it extend beyond the horizon, past the "Accident Area" road sign, onto the interstate freeway to Heaven?

So far there has been no answer, because those who knows can't turn back to tell you on this one-way street. & that's just the fact of life.